Obviously that makes life more confusing considering I spent the last year and a half with a man. The whole time I was with him I had doubts, but I ignored them because I made a commitment to him. I'm glad I was the only one that stuck to it.
He's in love with his ex and it's made me feel like everything was a lie. Maybe I was lying too. Lying to myself.
None of the time we spent together means anything anymore and I'm okay with it because now I can finally be myself and love it. Life happens and there are always going to be times of great pain but I have always prevailed. This is just a small fraction of what I have been handed and there is so much more to come. It was just a learning experience, maybe to help me figure out my own path, or to get to know myself better. I may not have all of the answers but I'm digging through the rubble and piecing it all back together again, but this time by myself. It's what needs to be done in order for me to be completely happy.
I love myself again for the first time in a long while, and I don't need anyone to tell me. This is where I am supposed to be, working through the mess instead of running from it.
The least initial deviation from the truth is multiplied later a thousandfold. ~Aristotle
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I've always thought of honesty as one of the most important things in this world. It defines boundaries while saying something about one's own personal limits, two essential things for living amongst...you know, people. Unfortunately, I mostly think about it as a mechanism for other people. I tend to be hyper aware and focused on how honest everyone else is in relation to myself. You, Heather, have eloquently outlined the other side of that equation: Being honest with oneself.
It's perhaps just as important as the former, and twice as hard to achieve. So kudos on that one, more people should live with that in mind.
Glad to see it's making you feel whole.
=) reclaim the power within you and know that you have a world of friends who are there to support you-
i'm very happy to be among them.
good for you, girl! it takes a lot for someone to analyze themselves. to also get answers from that analyzing is even better! you keep going. you're strong.
Pay somebody back in his own coin..................................................................
Yeah, and it's not as if anybody's stopping you. Your life, your wish, your ways! LIVE it !
Your day has arrived dear once and again to adore you with its tenser petals like the wafting buds in the eavning breexe your life will stanrt swing again with the spring.
V Bright Saigal
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