Sleep is a weird thing for me. Sometimes I sleep a lot and other times, I just can't and turn into a walking zombie. Today I am a zombie, looks and all. I rolled out of bed at 8:20am, which is usually the time I leave my house. Oops? Maybe if I wasn't kept up all night by people fucking upstairs I could have gotten some shut eye. Four am fucking is not okay, why can't you fuck at reasonable hours so I can NOT be a zombie today? I can't wait for the day that I can sleep through the entire night in my own god damn house. I mean seriously, even a repeatedly crying baby permitted me to sleep more.
It's not like I'm an insomniac, because believe me I can sleep, just not at night. No matter how hard I try as soon as I lay down to sleep it's a tidal wave of thoughts and emotions crowding my attempts, gawking at me. I don't know what it is. While I was in Florida all was right with my sleeping habits and I was even sleeping on a couch, with a baby crying every couple hours. Somehow I woke up at 8:30am almost every morning feeling refreshed. Right now I just feel fucking strung out. I promise I'm not though. I feel like no matter how many hours of sleep I get it's never enough and I'm struggling to play catch up.
My grandmother actually has the same problem as I do when it comes to falling asleep and staying that way. Could it be genetic? I'll never know because I don't have insurance. She gets a prescription for sleep medication, I can't get that either. So I'm just dealing with being a sleep deprived zombie.
Protest Schmotest
2 days ago
2 comments:
This sounds just like me seriously! I fall asleep for a min. then I'm up and can't get back to sleep! I woke this morn to take my kid down to the bus stop and wanted to fall back asleep and when I do for a min. I wake with a headache so i feel ya on the sleep deprivation! Here's to sleep...please!
I am like this to... It's a real problem for me actually! Horrible, truly horrible. I hope you get a good night sleep soon enough :)
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