A Step in the Right Direction

In a matter of minutes my dreams of having my first legitimate day of cutting hair were shattered. My mother called in sick. I drove all the way to the salon after rushing and getting ready during my hour break between the two and she wasn't even there! Not only that but she didn't call me to tell me, "Hey I won't be there today so you might as well stay at your other job and make some money." Nope not a word. So I left and went to my moms and got two pairs of scissors. Now I am officially more excited than I was yesterday. It's like it's building up and if I don't cut someone's hair I'm going to explode with anticipation and just start cutting, anything! Everything! Who cares!?

So hopefully, today will be the day of much knowledge absorption.

In other news, I didn't tell you but I got a new car. No more useless hunk of junk that made me fear for my life every time I turned the key in the ignition. Now I am a proud owner of a 2005 Volkswagen Jetta. With POWER everything and leather heated seats. I ride in style now. The best part? My temp tags expire on 4/20, for the pot head in me. Let's just all pray that I make my payments and it doesn't cause me to struggle because with this new job arrangement I have no idea how much money I'm going to be making at first. The first payment isn't until May so it gives me a little time to get comfortable.

A collector called me yesterday. Unpaid medical bills are now turning to collections and I don't even know where to start. They want $750 from me for lab work and on top of that I still have over $2,000. Literally as I was typing this a second creditor called. All medical bills. I haven't paid the taxes I owe yet and I don't even know how I'm going to. This feeling of being helpless is creeping up again and it's all because of money. I'm tired of asking people for help but it's at the point where I don't know what else to do. I needed a new car because mine was on it's last leg and I got a good deal. I'm terrified I'm just digging the hole deeper but I have faith that everything will eventually work out. It has to.

If it doesn't I'm seriously fucked.

Gradual change is what I need and that is exactly what I plan on doing. Gradually paying off because even the smallest amount is something towards the end. More people are worse off than I am and I just need to be grateful I'm not terminally ill or in need of constant medical care.

So maybe I'm more for the new bill than against it even though it needs lots of improvement. It's at least a step in some direction which is what everyone needed.